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1lb down

redrose101307 — Mon, 28 Feb 2011 19:44:05 +0000

145 to go.

That is all.

Starting over…take 2, or 3 i can’t remember

redrose101307 — Mon, 21 Feb 2011 16:18:10 +0000

so here i am again starting a new chapter in my “weight loss journey” and i put it in quotes because i’ve been compteley unsuccessful thus far in keeping any weight off. the only thing that helped me was getting pregnant.

my group of friends and i are trying a Biggest Loser type of challenge. we all put some money into the pot and whoever loses the most %wise will get the $. although for me, the $ has nothing to do with it. i’m tired of feeling crappy all the time.

i feel guilty that i can barely play with my daughter without being completely sore/exhausted. she deserves better from me. i can barely do anything without breaking a sweat and i’m just disgusted with myself. i am now back up to (+.4lbs) my heaviest weight. i haven’t weighed this much since Sept of 08, and between being pregnant and nursing i had lost over 40lbs. and the millisecond i stopped nursing my body said FUCK YOU and went back it it’s old ways.

My PCOS is back in full force and i’m now back on Metformin and started taking Inisotol to help with my symptoms and hopefully help me lose this weight. i’m so discouraged and angry, but as of now i need to stop feeling sorry for myself and do something about it. i’m tired of never doing anything because i’m embarassed to go out in public and missing out on life. i have my 10 year high school reunion (which i had wanted to go to but now i’m not sure) and my best friends wedding this year to look forward to. i’m tired of being the fat one.

it ends now.

so for posterity and hopefully some motivation considering this is on the interwebs i’m posting my starting weight for the world to see.

so here it is…

Weight Watchers and E-Mealz

redrose101307 — Tue, 04 Jan 2011 04:03:10 +0000

I’ve decided to write about these two things because i believe that i will have the best shot for success by combining these two things.

Pretty much everyone’s heard of WW already so i don’t think i need to go into that but i will say that i’m using the new Points Plus program and and anxious to see how it goes!

E-Mealz i’ve been using for a few months now and i love it. i am the eternal procrastinator so this makes my life a million times easier.

Every week i have my menu and shopping list planned out for me and they work with WW for food options. So all i need to do is plug in my shopping list to my grocery delivery service and i’m all set. no 5pm runs to the market when life just can’t get any busier. it also makes it easier to eat healthy because i don’t have any temptations in front of me in the market.

So far the husband has lost over 60lbs (it was 85 but the holidays were rough this year) so we’re both back on track and determined to make some real progress this time.

I’ll be making a tab with my referral info for E-Mealz. Seriously, it’s the shiz.

Back in the saddle

redrose101307 — Fri, 10 Dec 2010 17:30:05 +0000

I’m back on the weight loss train and I’m super excited about it.
I’ve started using the elliptical trainer and cutting out soda.
I want to set an ambitious goal and lose 40lbs by May 1st.
I’m going to be a bridesmaid in september so I need to get moving. At some point id also love to be able to run or at least complete a 5K.
So I leave you for now with my workout screen from my elliptical.

Ok so I’m back

redrose101307 — Thu, 29 Apr 2010 12:00:30 +0000

I’m now almost 6 months out from having my daughter…yes I had a girl! And I’m looking to get back on the losing weight train.
If anyone wants to read about my pregnancy its all on my other blog. I’ll be updating more regularly now that the little monkey is on a schedule.

Beta is in!

redrose101307 — Thu, 26 Feb 2009 20:15:27 +0000

it’s 23!
I go back monday for the repeat (on 14dpo)

I’m KTFU!!!

redrose101307 — Thu, 26 Feb 2009 16:49:56 +0000

Yes, that’s right, I’m Pregnant! I had absolutely no intention on testing, but last night at about 2am i was woken up by some cramps. these weren’t ordinary cramps, they felt almost like light AF cramps. i never cramp before AF, so i filed that away in my brain and went back to sleep. My temp was still pretty shitty this morning so i wasn’t sure if i wanted to test, but remembering the cramps i decided why not. After peeing in the cup and waiting the agonizing 3 minutes this showed up…

I immediately ran down the stairs and showed the husband, he thought i was nuts to trust one of “those dollar things” but i told him i’d be calling the RE to get b/w done and he said he’ll feel better when he hears it from the dr. I know everyone likes to hear symptoms so here they are: 5DPO- i know it’s early but i swear i had a strong metallic taste in my mouth, never happened before 7DPO- Cramps and temp dip 9DPO- Nausea and hearburn 10DPO- so far today i have rocking heartburn already and i’ll i’ve eaten is some oatmeal. Oh and the entire 2ww i’ve been exhausted but i’ve attributed that to my cold and of course the nipples that are on FIRE! Holy Fucking Shit, after 6 cycles and 9 long months, the wait is over, i’m Pregnant, and i couldn’t be happier. i’m trying to be optimistic, after all, i did have the ugliest BFP chart ever.So there you have it, my BFP post! I’m extatic! and I’ll be updating as soon as i get those beta #’s!

sigh

redrose101307 — Tue, 10 Feb 2009 18:05:42 +0000

hitting a wall before i’ve even started. i really can’t seem to get moving with the working out. i have zero excuses, i’m just lazy. losing weight is fucking hard.

thisclose to 5lbs!

redrose101307 — Sat, 10 Jan 2009 02:19:10 +0000

XP from other blog:
i’m down a total of 4.6 lbs! almost at 5, i’m feeling pretty good about it too.
i just have to do better with my food tracking and getting my exercise in.
i’m going to listen to the hypnotist tapes at night before bed, at the very least it’ll help me relax so i figure it can’t hurt.
good to know the portable cd player the husband bought me for x-mas will be playing more than my Twilight audio books!
i’ll update more later!!

A new direction for this blog

redrose101307 — Thu, 08 Jan 2009 17:42:32 +0000

as referenced http://redrose101307.blogspot.com/2009/01/plans-have-changed.html here in my other blog. i will be using this one as a journal/motivator for my weight loss journey.

i haven’t yet decided if i have the balls to post weekly pics, but i just might anyway. it’ll help me mentally if i know i have to try and not look disgusting for my readers.

they will come with a disclaimer that i am not responsible if any vomitting or other adverse side effects occur after looking at them. View at your own risk!

I weigh in tonight so let’s see how bad the holidays were to my ass!

That’s all for now

~Ciao